These past two Fridays have proved to be quite dramatic but revealing, it looks like some good may have come out of them after all. It’s also helped heal my paranoid worries that I’ve continually been putting my foot in it.. When it seems in reality it was just a matter of being an easy target I suppose. Hopefully next week is a bit calmer and I can enjoy my social sewing time instead of dread it in anticipation of an ear ache!
In other news I’m hoping to start sewing with my daughter more often. This weekend when my son naps, I plan to get her on the new machine and make something simple that she can use. I’ve no idea what yet but I’m hoping it will help us both to relax and enjoy each others company a bit more. We’ve been going through a tricky few weeks with out eldest. Her mood swings and outbursts have been trailing to say the least. Considering she’s only 5, it’s worrying for the future. I particularly dread the teenage years.
My sons been quite fragile too. Very angry over little things. He had an accident with our fridge yesterday that resulted in his bottom two milk teeth becoming wobbly and his gum looking quite bruised. We’re hoping it should be okay but seen as the local A&E refuse to see him and our dentist not accepting new patients, we don’t have much choice 😦
I treated myself this week and it arrived this morning. Oh my, I’m in love!
I can’t wait to make something but I have no idea what. So I’ve just spent the last hour organising my sewing area and storage, including rewinding bobbins. It sounds extremely boring but I found it quite therapeutic haha.
Thinking back now, it’s funny when you see a pattern. Last September I joined a local group. In that group was a lady that was going through a lot. We all rallied around her to try and make her life as easy as we could. For whatever reason, she cut us all off quite suddenly. I didn’t take it well as I struggle getting to know people anyway.
Year or so later and shes back with a spoon in hand. It’s been nothing but a nightmare since. She’s again left with a big bang, this time accusing people of being negative and toxic in a group message before blocking everyone, namely myself as I stuck up for myself for once.
Oh well, you live and learn. Safe to say I wont fall into the pit again. I’m kinda glad it ended as it did as I can draw a line under it and be done.
So originally this blog was supposed to be started on my 29th birthday, 9 months ago. For whatever reason, most probably laziness, it never happened. So here we are in October and I’m making an attempt to hopefully start this thing off!
This year so far has been such a mixed bag. The year started off pretty rubbish in all honesty. I was struggling with my mental health, stress and worry about my sons heart health, finances..It all got a bit much.
Somehow the year sort of improved. I can’t place where it happened but it did. For the first time in years since moving to Suffolk, I felt like I belonged. I had friends, I had a routine weekly that involved being an adult instead of “Mum” for a few hours. It felt good.
Now I’m not sure what’s going on. I’m struggling daily to even motivate myself to eat. I’m grumpy and I can see it’s effecting my kids. So my thinking is if I have a place to get all the things that are crowding my mind out and written down, I may be able to figure out myself why this vicious cycle keeps happening.
This blog is gonna be a bit random I suppose. Between rants and ramblings on anything from kids to wheels, I’ll probably touch on my sewing when I manage it. We are also hoping to get married in 2020, so a bit of planning and brainstorming may occur too. Just a bit of everything!